Monday, November 13, 2006
11:33 am

-It never rains but pours-

How apt this is especially in view of the inclement weather recently. The weekend for some of us was horrid that led to a dear friend commenting that our fighting spirit goes on despite the many things that happened. Things could not have gone worse than Saturday or so I thought. When I awoke on Sunday close to 12pm due to a bout of bad flu, there were many missed calls and sms-es asking all about the same thing. A frenzy of phonecalls began and a realization began to sink in that we had dropped the ball. Once again.

Nevertheless had a good chat with raine and after speaking to her, felt more lifted and encouraged by her words. Thanks dear. Another dear friend must have remembered my love language: words of affirmation and dropped me a message to encourage me. Despite all my years in ministry, confidence is always an issue I have struggled with. This may seem as a surprise to some who see me as always putting on a brave front. But I am human too. I break down too. Yes I commit mistakes and I acknowledge them. During this whole year, I feel stretched but I'm trying my best. Yet the last thing I really need is to get a sms from you asking why have I not ensured things happen?

Then again, I thank God for my other friends who cared enough to ask how I am. Yes they were probing too for an answer but it was tempered with love. That however my friend, was sadly lacking in your message to me. I do not fail to see that you are always much more meticulous than perhaps all of us but kindly please understand that we are also trying our best to be more C, to check on things more thoroughly.

The one person I will really want to say sorry to is our dearest group leader. Honestly it makes me sad that we were not good armourbearers again. However to use a cliche: life goes on, God is good. Group 1 shall strive to be better. I believe this will be a learning experience for all of us to grow even closer and more united.